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[31 Aug 2006|11:12pm]
[ mood | crushed ]

Well i finally got the guts to do it im back at home and it sucks but ill be strong. this might work out to be better maybe you'll finally realize with me gone that im the one.. or maybe you'll realize im just a friend. either way this is for the best.

can a song replace a broken heart?

[12 Jul 2006|10:26pm]
Drinking sucks and i Suck........... goooodnight to all !
can a song replace a broken heart?

FUUUCK [12 Jul 2006|09:42pm]
[ mood | blank ]

Don't you hate when you feel like you just want to roll over and die. This sucks I'm by myself your out with the kids with him and i'm drinking so i can sleep. i haven't slept well in 5 days count them 5. Some know that since I write them late night text saying im coming over just to see if anyone cares for me. I'm pathetic your beautiful and SOMETIMES i wish you weren't so pretty weren't so perfect and was a complete bitch and ugly so no guys would like you and you wouldn't be tempted to flirt or date any other guys.

I suck time to drink good night

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[10 Jul 2006|08:03am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

It's better for me to stay here until you find someone to replace me with. We still kiss, cuddle, and hug but nothing like before but that litttle bit and you say "yes iwant to kiss you and more but i can't for we are not going out" makes me sad but happier that you actually still have feelings for you. i found out how i messed this relationship up now. I argue to much i thought it was the reason but it is i argue to much we fought aboiut the litttlest things didn't we? Well not no more asnd you have seen how well i have been with the kids and you mr. happy jay just because i know you still have feelings for me. I WANT YOU BACK! i have been reading your past blogs on livejournal , hivelife, and xanga and we were so in love. YOU Loved everything about me and more. I was completely head over heels for you and i still am! =-]


I Love You Venesa And I Hope We Get Back Together The First Time You Go On A Date With A New Guy Because You Realize You Love Me. and then i can teach you to snowboard and we can go on top of the mountain and you can see all the nice views and see my face get all red and (what you say) cute. and we can go up to vermont and i can make you have fun like you never did before=-]

Ihopeyoureadthesesooniknowyouhaven'tyetbutihopeyoudomaybei'lltellangeltohintthemoutforyou.=-]

can a song replace a broken heart?

[09 Jul 2006|10:18am]
[ mood | curious ]

I'm just going to have to accept it and hope she see's the light after dating others and comes back to me. I will make everything work again i will be better then I was and you can be my princess and be treated like one. We wont argue anymore, I'll have more money, I'll be more spontaneous, we will go on more road trips, we can go to Canada and to six flags, I wont do the stuff you don't want me to do, I'll try my hardest to please you and your needs. I LOVE YOU vanesa and I want you in my life and no where else. I want you to love me back and want me like the old days where you would miss me after 8 hours of not seeing each other and text me to come home early from work so you could see me and we could go to target. where I could watch you sleep and wake you up with little kisses for you to say my breath smells and then we go and brush our teeth together. I miss everything we have had and everything we have done. Now you'll move on and do these things with other people and hopefully you still love me and realize that all these things are special to us and you come back to my loving arms and stay there for the rest of your life.




Today would of been our two year one month anniversary. I didn't even realize it until I enter this in and read the date. No wonder I had the strong erg to write this. Everyday on our anniversary we would do something fun. six flags,beach,shopping,and if we didn't do anything I would at least bring you out to eat. I miss all that and now I wish I never saw it was our anniversary because it's going to make me more depressed.=\




I do believe that we just needed a break so we could "see" other people and I have tried to "See" other people but it's too hard and I can not do it. I look at them and see something that reminds me of you even if it's a dimple or small ears or a cute little nose. I can't stop thinking of you ever and then every time I think of you I'll end up thinking of you with another guy. =-[ But it has to happen and I hope it's with a good guy at least and not a sleaze bag who want's to fuck you because your hott and Asian I hope he want's you for all the other sweet assets like your outrageous personality, your smile, your eyes, your kiss, you passionate side, your big warm heart, you outdoors men side, your adventurous side, your movie side, your little anger problems =-], your caring and your over caring, and the one I hop no one else see's your loving self =-\. You are beautiful in side and out and I love it and I love you.



and don't say forget her I can do better because then of course you do not know her or me. She is the best thing that HAS EVER happened to me. She helped me get back onto my feet and then she posted me up to the sky and i have been high off her love since i feeel in love with her that night that i woke up early and wacth her sleep making all these cute noise and wrapping her legs around me to pull me closer and when she woke up her eyes all glazed over and gave me that beloved kiss the little tap one so i wouldn't smell her breath =-]


I LOVE YOU VENESA VANNAVONG NGUYEN AND I WILL NEVER FORGET ANYTHING ABOUT US.

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[05 Jul 2006|10:34pm]
I'm not going to lie but this is the worst feeling i have felt since seeing my aunt in her coffin. Seeing you so happy flirting with boys hurts me. We just broke up and what you said "take a break" oh well good things never last and the best things always die. So i guess i just have to live in sorrow and hope for better days.. atleast we are still friends? If that makes my situation better. the worst thing is is that you still kiss me still have feelings for me but then i read you messages (i know i'm a dirty rotten scoundrel) and you are flirting with boys telling some you like them.

I hope for you to have the best of luck your beautiful intelligant, easy going, and have one of the birghtest futures ahead of you it would be stupid to be stuck with such a sad lump on a log who is just a young immature loser.


Goodbye my love, Hello my sorrow






















Lately been up to nothing much, working, trying to sell my car, and hanging out with vanesa's little cousins.
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[11 Aug 2005|08:39pm]
Im going to go pick her up RIGHT NOW ohh man i can't wait!!!!! =-]
can a song replace a broken heart?

[11 Aug 2005|12:17am]
22 hours
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[10 Aug 2005|08:56pm]
http://www.mongrelianm.cjb.net/ <<go to that!!!!! 25 hours im so excited
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[10 Aug 2005|01:43pm]
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY EVEN THOUGH YOU DONT CALL ME =-[ BUTT HOLE!
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[08 Aug 2005|10:32pm]
Love by ruby mae
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so true
can a song replace a broken heart?

[08 Aug 2005|01:09pm]
[ mood | bouncy ]

3 more days =-] i cant wait im seriously peeing my pants everytime i think about it =-]



YES

can a song replace a broken heart?

[05 Aug 2005|09:15pm]
New emery is pretty good!!!


Golden Globe Barbie biacthe (the new one is madd cute!!!)

So isnt champange belle!

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Arent they so cute they are soo cute together aways play fighting like bears!!! and ganging up on coco but coco beats them both up =-]


5 DAYS until full happiness re arrives
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[24 Jul 2005|07:34pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

My car after the roll over not that bad and in a week will be looking twice as good as it everdid =-]


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me really hott and pauls cute little puppy!
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BELLE MY NEW POOD IM GETTING ANOTHER IN A WEEK

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R.I.P Barb never being replaceD


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[11 Jul 2005|08:18pm]
[ mood | depressed ]

Vanesa has gone to france and it sucks im pretty much depressed on and off sobbing its like shes Gone forever or something i dont know it sucks im soo worried about her i just want to make sure she got their safely and shit and i wont know till tomm at night if she calls... my phone is on me at all times and i will stop everything right when she calls no matter what and talk to her for days! i love her soo damn much and this really showed me how much i do serious love her and its crazy i neveer cried over someone leaving me for like a month.... maybe if died or some ( R.I.P BARBIE ) yes barbie has died and i still cry over her but i do have a new dog belle a cream poodle like a off white shes cute but not as good as my beloved barbie  rip barbie she will never be forgotten!!!!!


IF ANYONE SEES THIS AND WANTS TO HANG OUT GIVE ME A CALL I DO WORK ALOT BUT I WILL BE ABLE TO HANG OUT AND DOES ANYON E WANT TO GO TO THE ACAMDEMY IS SHOW WITH ME?! please i want to go everyone call or leave a message here if you want to hang out!!!

 

LOVE TO ALL

but my hear t0 goes out to vanesa i love you!
have fun hunny!
R.I.P BARBIE

 

 

=-/ save me from boredom!

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just when i thought i had it made [16 Jun 2005|05:18am]
[ mood | crushed ]

I dont think i have ever felt this sick.... talk to me! it is a joke i love you! =-[






I Jeremy Menard Am the gayest kid ever cause i fuck around to much and joke about stuff to much and then loose the one i love over it.....


THE END

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I LOVE VANESA [09 Jun 2005|11:56am]
[ mood | loved ]

ME AND VANESA HAVE BEEN LOVING FOR ONE YEAR AND I LOVE IT THE WORLD LOVE IS VANESA SHE IS MY SOULMATE AND LOVE FOR THE REST OF OUR WELL BEING!!!! i love you vanesa and always will!!!




06-09-04

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[26 May 2005|11:50pm]
ITS MY B DAY IN 10 MIN!
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[01 May 2005|11:38pm]
[ mood | horny ]

Everyone is always sooo sad i am soo lucky to have you!!!!!

i work alot no between 18 hrs to 30 hrs a week but i be brining home aorund 130$-200$ with taxes already out a weeek soo it's all good baby RS 2.5 coming! and a lot of work! i still have to scut lawns i get like three days off everyweek if that! this week only two!!!!!! ahhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!! if anyone wants a job there just tell me an d ill help you get one the supervisor loves me and told me to just tell her your name and shell getyou a job!!! HOLLA


cheer up everyone dont be sad because everyone pictures you that way be happy!

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[28 Mar 2005|02:34pm]
BUT I ADORE HER!!!!!





NEW GRINDCORE VIDEOS SHOT TODAY WITH GUITAR!!!!!! gold fish and apple juice, my love, regret, fire, and fancy pants on even asses!!!=]
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